ended poly life unofficially 2 months ago and frankly speaking, life isnt going in the direction that i want it to.

got offered a job at my intern company during my internship and ive been doing the same thing for the past 5 months already.

anyone who knows me, would know my fire for a job only last for a maximum of 6 months. everyone is betting on me leaving this job before my 6th month and im kindda on the verge of quitting anytime soon.

im trying very hard to live with this job but to tell you the truth, i aint very close with my colleagues. the 5 minute talk's with them is good enough for me already. i dont really need to 'bond' with them cause i dont really see the need to be bonded with them. the people in there are very 'FOR THEMSELVES' and they dont give a shit to what you're doing uh. and maybe its because of that, i tend to distant myself away from them. not going to gatherings, not hanging out and even not lunching with them.

im not being difficult or what but to me, i forge friendships for a reason and with people i want to and need to. well, maybe i am being difficult afterall.

enough talking about work, upon unofficially graduated from poly, ive been on a couple of trips, overseas:)

good times.

on the another hand, ive never been good with dealing with relationships.

family friends, im not very confident with my relationships with them.

talking about stuffs about them is also very sensitive to me and but somehow ive found some people i trust to talk things about. people who are willing to be my listening ears and give me advise. the people i think are worth being friends with. pouring everything out to them do make things slightly less heavy on my side.

ok, this is stupid.

bye